The more tired I became the less I slept eventually I could not meet my contractual obligations and became unfit for work. I couldn’t remember simple things, or complete sentences or mundane tasks successfully. Lack of sleep combined with an excessive workload gradually caused me to become unable to function. Insomnia and mental health should be taken seriously in the workplace.Īnonymous ‘Eventually I became unfit for work’ My insomnia would have improved faster had this pressure not been there. This pressure only made my anxiety worse. I was criticised for seeming downbeat and tired. My boss regularly asked personal questions about my mental health and what I was doing to improve my insomnia. Most of the time I could get the work done, but I was completing tasks at a slower rate. I found it difficult to focus at work during this period and felt under a lot of pressure to “get better”. Once I was worrying less about having to make it through the next working day I was able to sleep better, although my sleep patterns were still very irregular for around six months afterwards. I was eventually signed off work by a doctor and was able to take about three weeks off. My stomach hurt, my head hurt, and I cried repeatedly. For the first four weeks I lay awake for hours and only seemed able to fall asleep for around 15 minutes at a time.
In a previous job I suffered from a bout of severe anxiety-fuelled insomnia. The cumulative effect of months of sleeping trouble caused bad migraines, modes of depression, and anxiety attacks, which made falling asleep even harder.Īnonymous, 34, musician, the Netherlands ‘I was eventually signed off work’ On the few occasions I was performing, I was more on autopilot. Even worse, working as a music teacher became almost unbearable (imagine listening to six-year-olds playing recorder when you’ve had an hour’s sleep or so). My insomnia impacted me so much that as a musician I found it harder and harder to push myself to practise. I often dream of what my life could have been without insomnia.Īnonymous, director of a small not-for-profit, London ‘Working as a music teacher became almost unbearable’
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I have had some satisfying moments career-wise since then, but I feel as if I lost out a great deal – in money and professional development. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.I left my job and started to do a mixture of voluntary and consultancy work part-time in the not-for-profit sector. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. It’s not desiring the fall it’s terror of the flames. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view i.e. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. “The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square.
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